Checkup and Changes

I went back for another ultrasound to check on the baby and make sure everything was ok with the hemorrhage.  The baby looked wonderful with a heart rate of 152 bpm.  I never get tired of hearing the heartbeat!  This ultrasound was special...it was the first time that Raleigh was able to see the baby.  She kept saying, "she's so cute!"  I can't wait to watch her be a big sister!

The doctor did say that I have placenta previa which means that I need to continue to take it easy with no heavy lifting or strenuous exercise.  This is so hard to hear and know.  Raleigh's pregnancy was so easy with no complications.  I felt great the whole time, even a week after my due date!  This one is so different.  I don't feel horrible, but I just feel confined.  I can't pick Raleigh up and I'm nervous about every little move I make.  I don't want to do anything to hurt this baby so I'm more sensitive to every little pain or muscle spasm that I have.  The doctor said that in most cases the placenta will move up by delivery and will be fine.  If it doesn't then I'll have to have a C-section.  I don't want a C-section at all so hopefully it will move up!  I'll be checked again at 20 weeks.

Since I had an ultrasound I asked if they could tell what the baby might be.  She said we could look, but not to go out and buy anything yet.  I wouldn't anyway until it's confirmed at 20 weeks because I've heard of too many stories about it being a wrong prediction when people were told early.  Well, it looked like a boy.  This caused a whole episode of emotions!  I have wanted a girl for several reasons...Raleigh's clothes could be reused, I love all things girl, I'm terrified of having a boy because I'm not familiar with all the boy toys and I don't just love the outdoors.  Will I love this baby just the same if it is a boy?  YES!  I just have a lot to learn and I have to change my mindset to boy things instead of all things girl!  I know there is a reason for whatever we are having, but I just have to get my emotions out now so that I can then embrace whatever gender we are having and prepare the room and my heart.  When we were pregnant with Raleigh I told myself all along it would be a boy so then when they told me a girl I cried and thought about how much she'll hate me during the teenage years.  I did the exact same thing so I know this time around it will all be great again!  We'll see if everything is the same when we have a look again at 20 weeks!